It's Wednesday and I have a question.

Everybody gets mad sometimes. I really try not to but sometimes things are just so awful and I don't want to -- to deal with it anymore. It's hard. So I just go out walking sometimes, just by myself. I'm older now so it's okay for me to do that, even though my Mom gets upset about it still. She worries a lot.

What does everybody else do when they're upset? To make themselves feel better I mean. I can't think of anything besides what I'm already doing. But I bet not everybody does it.

I hate Festival.

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Good. I'm grown up now. I don't need her to take care of me anymore. I can take care of everyone by myself. I can take care of Ma Mom and make sure P Dad gets better. I can do it on my own.

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It's not as loud in Norey anymore now that the holiday's over. It's better quiet.

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Maybe if I ignore her, she'll stop liking me.

You didn't even have to get me anything, Karia.

I'm almost grown up now. Even Mama says so...

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I don't want her here. It's dumb and stupid and she'll see all those things and she'll probably know that's what I was doing and it's dumb.

No, Mama, I'm not doing anything bad. I'm not going to go away.

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...my mama isn't dead.

...I don't know.

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I want it to stop raining. It's too dark. I'm not scared I just hate it.

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...he better not be lying this time

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I hate him. I hate him and I hate them and I hate all of them and I hate it and Cassie and Skye are dead and stupid Brydon and it's his fault and

and I hate him and I hate his stupid brother for getting in the way and I hate it and

and

I hate it it's not fair...

But

It's not going to be fun and I hate it and nobody cares.

Cassie liked rain. I hate it.

It's all stupid and I want it to stop.

Mama won't do it and Karia's looking after Mama so I'll do it.

I'm big now. I can go on my own.

I hate Rose Day. It's just stupid and it doesn't do anything and Mama was sad all day.

I'm not scared. I'm not. There are scarier things. Karia can quit asking me if I'm scared cause I'm not scared no matter how loud it is.

I'm not scared.

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He's lying

He's lying

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He keeps saying it wasn't but the Prince is one of them too

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Maybe he's right.

I still hate it.

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They're not getting any better you're just stupid

nothing's ever going to be better ever ever again